My heart is broken. And so is this blog.

- Sam

And In The End,
The Love You Take
Is Equal To the Love
You Make.

THE END

I don't feel like writing in here when the person I love most dearly won't read it. So, here's to a couple years of good, bad, and so-so memories.

It's the end.

Her Majesty's a pretty nice girl,
but she doesn't have a lot to say
Her Majesty's a pretty nice girl
but she changes from day to day.
I want to tell her that I love her a lot
But I gotta get a bellyful of wine
Her Majesty's a pretty nice girl
Someday I'm going to make her mine, oh yeah,
someday I'm going to make her mine.

Ok, now it's really the end. Good night. Thanks for coming or not coming to the show.

-Sam

I am feeling a little weird tonight. Not that that is unusual or anything because I feel weird a lot. My feelings seem to be the same ones I always feel though. I should be thankful, because I have what I have, but in the end I am just not satisfied with myself. I have a caring and loving family and boyfriend, I have a low paying but secure job at home, my college education is being paid for in small part by my family and I am elligible for scholarships and loans.

It's good Tara makes me laugh. And I have Adam. Other than that I feel insecure, and don't know what to do anymore. I am mature enough to handle my life. I know so. I just wish I knew which turns I should take to get on the right path.

I am a little depressed today. Even though I am done with classes for the day, have my habitat meeting setup for tomorrow, and worked on my D&D character, I still feel depressed. I am also depressed because I found out my birth control shot could cost between $30 and $75 dollars. Blargh. I can't go down and get it today either, cause it is sooo far to walk to the pharmacy. :(

I miss Adam a lot too. x/3 I feel so separated from him now. I know we will have fun on the weekends tho. :)

::sigh:: I dunno what to do now. I do have some stuff due. I need to read an accounting chapter, write a small paper for Habitat class, and study for a bio quiz on tuesday, plus read for English. But I don't feel like doing anything.

:( I wanna be motivated so I do well, I wanna make everyone happy, but I feel like... I dunno, just crappy.

I guess I'll try to do something. <3 Adam

I still have half an hour until class and I just finished studying for accounting so I decided to make a post. :D

The weekend with Adam was pretty good but there was a lot of D&D so Adam and I didn't get that much alone time. Still slept together, though. This weekend will be better cause no D&D on Saturday. I need to work on a campaign for school tonight though, and pick out a character I want to be! I was looking at being a centaur the other day and that looked cool, but there were some minuses to being it. I dunno.

I miss Adam a lot this week but I still get to talk to him everyday which is good. I don't like that he doesn't comment here anymore, but maybe he is too busy. I dunno. I was a little upset with him yesterday too, cause he didn't want me to talk to him, cause he had his program to work on. Then later on we talked a lot though, I guess.

Hmm... so... I am not worried about my accounting test, it will be easy. As the week gets closer to the end I get more excited to see Adam. <3

I am also really happy I have 10 active rpers in my yahoo group! :D And Attrice, the one person recommends my group on Aarinfantasy's message board! :D I rawk!

Um, so, love you Adam, and comment here or post in your blog soon!

<3bai

Since I am so in love with Anime conventions I've mad a final list of the ones I could attend this year! :D

Nekocon November 4-6
Ohayocon January 6-8
Katsucon February 17-19
Paicon March 24-26
Tekkoshocon March 31 - April 2
Matsuricon April 20-23
Anime MidAtlantic June 16-18
Otakon August 4-6

Cons I am definitely attending

Otakon - Hotel room already reserved - Radisson Lord Plaza Hotel - 2 blocks from con center

Hopefulls-

Tekkoshocon (birthday gift!)

I'd like to go see more, but being a poor college student has it disadvantages, and I also don't even know how much money is in my bank account. >.<;; I need to call my Dad.

I will update this if there are changes!

I am done with classes for the day and am drinking one of Tara's diet cherry pepsi's! Yum! I might make soup soon too, for lunch, cause I am too lazy to walk over to Stover to get some grub.

I have accounting and some reading for English to do. I think that is all of my work. Around 6ish Adam is coming to get me and we are going to be together all weekend! w00t! :D

Ok, bai bai for now!

Well, so over labor day weekend a few things happened. I hung out with Adam and worked on my D&D character for his campaign and played D&D on Saturday. Sunday and Monday I went to my aunts house and ate a lot of yummy food and watched movies.

This week I have been doing just the normal stuff. Only special things were tye-dying a T-shirt! I am also going to the Environmental club meeting on Thursday and have to go to the Habitat for Humanity office that day to interview someone there.

I miss Adam a lot but it helps because he calls me or I call him every night. I wish I could talk to him a lot more, but now that he cannot get on aim at work, I talk to him a lot less than I did in the summer.

Prolly next week Melissa and I will start working on a campaign for D&D so we can play something! ^^ Weee! Fun! And I can go watch anime with them, which is fun too! :D

Now I need to shower and get dressed and look over my accounting chapter. I have psyche and accounting this morning and geography tonight, then I am just going to catch up on any work I need to do tonight, so I have as little as possible for the weekend.

Sam<3Adam!